That’s Not Exactly What I Wanted to Hear, Doc

There are times in your life where you’ve gotten all “prayed up”, you have everyone that loves you praying for you, you even have that gut feeling that all was going to go your way. Only to have the legs kicked out from under you again.

So let’s look at this from a spiritual standpoint first and foremost. God was in control before the appointment just as He is now that we have gotten the news. Lori and I will still be faithful and will praise His name throughout.

OK, now for a “what’s going on” standpoint. Dr. Randolph told us the cancer has progressed and I am going to have more chemotherapy. The lymph nodes under my armpits are enlarged, lit up, and almost certainly malignant. The left side of my neck is lit up most likely due to the surgery I had a couple of months ago. I also have some action on the right side of my neck which is almost certainly cancer. On a positive note, the cancer is not in any of my organs. Brain is clear, along with lungs, liver, kidneys, et al.

Now what are we going to do about it. First we praise the Creator of the Universe. He alone is worthy of praise. Secondly, we lean on the common grace He has made available to us all through medicine. I will take Gemzar and Taxol. I will have treatment week one, week two, and will have a break on week three. This will make up a cycle. I’m not certain at this point how many cycles will be prescribed before another PET/CT scan.

What are we expecting as an outcome? That the glory of God will be made undeniably evident to someone who is involved in our situation and a soul would be saved. Secondarily, that this cocktail of chemo will be enough to purge cancer from my body and I will be able to grow old with Lori, see my kids grow up, graduate from college, marry, give us grandkids (IN THAT ORDER!).

So that’s where we at. Please keep us on you prayers as we are still in dire need.

Love you all!


10 thoughts on “That’s Not Exactly What I Wanted to Hear, Doc

  1. OH no. It is not what any of us wanted to hear.
    I am so sorry and again stand amazed at your faith. Such a faithful servant you are. Oh the pain you endure! May God continue to give you strength and the doctors something for your pain.
    You do everything that God asks of you with the prayer that someone will find, or start to believe in God. Heaven will surely be your final reward.
    I pray that this round of treatments gives you the opportunity to grow old with your family.
    We love you Alan,
    Sheryl and Wayne

  2. Not what I wanted to hear either, you both know I am here for you if you need anything.

  3. Alan and Lori, this is not what I wanted to hear, either. I have been praying fervently for all of you. I pray that the cancer will be purged from your body, Alan. I still believe that this is possible and I will continue to pray. Please know that you all are loved, thought about, and prayed for daily.

  4. Keep fighting! That’s not the news I wanted to hear either, but at least you still trust in the One that created you and knows exactly how long you’ll be here on earth, whether that’s a year or 50! Love you guys!

  5. That is not the news that we wanted to hear, but we are going to keep on doing what we’ve been doing – praying, praying, praying. We are all lifting you, Lori, and the kids up in prayer. Much love and many prayers to the Black family.

  6. Alan and Lori….

    Sorry about the news the doctor gave you Alan. It didn’t catch God by surprise though! He knows all about this storm in your lives and He knows the outcome! Your faith in Him is amazing! And I know He will see you through! Praying you will be here for a long time!

  7. Alan and Lori,
    I am amazed at how God is working in you to transform your hearts to reflect more of His holiness. When God does not change our circumstances to meet our present expectations it is because He wants to use those circumstances to reveal in and through us things that only He can do that go beyond what we ever asked or imagined. Thank you for being His willing and faithful servant. Thank you for bearing this cross of cancer for the sake of the gospel. You know the truth and the truth has set you free to be used by God regardless of your present circumstances. You may never know this side of Heaven whose lives you have impacted through the faith you are demonstrating in Christ. But, you are most definitely storing up treasures in heaven where moth and rust cannot destroy. I do join you in praying that God will grant you the desires of your heart as you delight in Him each day. The suffering you are experiencing now pales in comparison to the joy of the Lord that is being made complete in you. Thank you for your witness. It is obvious that despite things not being “well” in your physical body, it is “well” with your soul. We love you guys!


    Amanda and Scott

  8. Just close your ears to this, and keep your eyes open for the opportunities to get better. You can and will get thru this. Please let us know when you are in our area. Would just like to see you when we can and you feel like it. You have been such a trooper. You can do this. Keep up the good fight. Love you cuz.

  9. News that the beast has not moved into your organs is a blessing!!!!! You and Lori have are fighters and with that ….you are winning!

    Your responses to what you have been dealt are inspiring Alan. It is evident that God is right beside you.

    I love you and I’m still praying…praying for peace, comfort, and healing.

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