My mouth is filled with your praise, and with your glory all the day. Psalm 71:8 ESV
Today has been one of those days where I look back and realize just how much this beast has taken from me. I can no longer raise my left hand high enough to wash my hair on the left side of my head or easily get my deodorant on. I’m out of breath walking through the house. I live with muscle rub and heating pads on my left shoulder to ease the pain. It’s seems that it is harder to understand me now than right after the surgery where I lost 20% of the base of my tongue.
So where is God in this? Why does He not solve my problems and make this easier. I promised I would serve Him through all of this. I promised Him I would suffer well. If I praise His name on the bad days and good days why doesn’t he make His presence felt on the bad days as well as good.
I lift up my eyes to the hills, From where does my help come? My help comes from the Lord, who made heaven and earth. He will not let your foot be moved; he who keeps you will not slumber. Psalm 121:1-4 ESV
He stands by me no matter what. I never have to really look for Him. He is always close by and stands with me when I cannot. He cries with me when I suffer and He gives me strength to face each obstacle. He is all I need. He promised.
But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me. 2 Corinthians 12:9 ESV
So I will continue to praise His name for He does it all. I will boast of all my weakness for it is then that His strength is amplified, made more evident to around me.