A Bad Day?

My mouth is filled with your praise, and with your glory all the day. Psalm 71:8 ESV

Today has been one of those days where I look back and realize just how much this beast has taken from me. I can no longer raise my left hand high enough to wash my hair on the left side of my head or easily get my deodorant on. I’m out of breath walking through the house. I live with muscle rub and heating pads on my left shoulder to ease the pain. It’s seems that it is harder to understand me now than right after the surgery where I lost 20% of the base of my tongue.

So where is God in this? Why does He not solve my problems and make this easier. I promised I would serve Him through all of this. I promised Him I would suffer well. If I praise His name on the bad days and good days why doesn’t he make His presence felt on the bad days as well as good.

I lift up my eyes to the hills, From where does my help come? My help comes from the Lord, who made heaven and earth. He will not let your foot be moved; he who keeps you will not slumber. Psalm 121:1-4 ESV

He stands by me no matter what. I never have to really look for Him. He is always close by and stands with me when I cannot. He cries with me when I suffer and He gives me strength to face each obstacle. He is all I need. He promised.

But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me.  2 Corinthians 12:9 ESV

So I will continue to praise His name for He does it all. I will boast of all my weakness for it is then that His strength is amplified, made more evident to around me.

3 thoughts on “A Bad Day?

  1. HI, Alan & Lori,
    I’ve never posted on anyones blog. In fact yours is the only one I read. You two are amazing & yes, I know you’ll say not us but, our amazing LORD is at work, You’ll probably not know until we get to Heaven the number of lives you have touched. I know several from CBC who have read your testimony and one pastor even commented about it during his sermon at CBC’s nursing home ministry last week. I remember well the 5th floor penthouse. Cran and I enjoyed watching the sunset from there a couple of times. We miss our dear John terribly but, the Lord is faithful to comfort us through our friends & family and His Word. It comforts me when I remember HE collects all our tears. I’m praying for you both daily. Love, Jeanne

    • Jeanne, I loved hearing from you. You and Cran are still an inspiration to me. I am reaching out to people out of my illness and you are reaching out in your time of loss. Lori keeps me up to date every time you text her. And I always share the cards from Central Baptist Church. We hear and feel the powerful prayers that we can only thank you for. You are in our prayers regularly, too. God bless all of you.

  2. Alan,

    How amazing your faith continues to be! He Lifts you up my friend! And He never ever gives up on us, just as you have not given up on Him. Tears I share with you and your family because I know your burden must be heavy, but you are so so strong!! Love y’all, and many many prayers being sent!


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