We have all heard the saying that God will not give us more than we can handle. I read another blog this afternoon (a pastor) and he was pointing out that this sentiment is not actually in the bible. The closest we get is that we will not be tempted with more than we can withstand (paraphrased – see 1 Corinthians 10:13). The real meat lies in the words of Paul where in 2 Corinthians 1:8,9 he talks about his afflictions in Asia. “For we were so utterly burdened beyond our strength that we despaired for life itself. Indeed we felt we had received the sentence of death. But that was to make us rely not on ourselves but on God who raises the dead.”
This slams me directly in one of my most constant sins, “man pride”. So many time I spout out “I’m fine.” In which Lori typical corrects me and makes me tell the truth about how I have been doing. That is when God shows up and people see how He has moved in my life. Personally, on the days when things are crashing down around me (just home from surgery, son in the hospital with collapsed lung, I can’t be there) and I’m reduced to tears because I have nothing else to give, that is when God is there with me. Assuring me it will be OK, Assuring me CAB and I will make it. After hearing that the cancer has come back for the third time and all Lori and I can do is fake being strong for each other, but really felt blowing up in tears. God was there holding us and wondering why we were faking what we felt.
When I rely on myself, my mind is too full to see or feel God’s presence (even though he is there.) I really need to work on my “man pride” and let people know more exactly where I am so they can more readily see God moving in the life of me, Lori and my family. Please help me pray for this because it has been a long time sin I have had. It predates cancer by as many years as I can add.
I love all of you; Family, Friends, Prayer Warriors (even those I have never had the pleasure to meet, including the prayer warriors at Central Baptist Church, Henderson, N.C.), my church family, and my CTCA family.