Needle Biopsy … Blech!

It sounds almost as fun as it is. This one was actually a CT directed needle biopsy. I was able to use some twilight meds and some local anesthesia. The doctor who performed the test said my comfort was the primary focus.

My last needle biopsy was done in the basement/dungeon of the old Crawford Long Hospital in Atlanta. No anesthesia, 30 feet below street level pre-WWI architecture. A chair that was older than the building I was in, doctor from somewhere in Asia, could not understand her. World of difference.

Anyway, just had to have it on one side. They believe both sides are similar enough that one biopsy is all that would be required.

Next week we will meet with Dr. Randolph again to get the final results and start our new regimen of chemo.

Keep us in your prayers, it feels like we are starting over. I had the same rush of emotions this morning that I have had before. Sad that I have cancer, disappointed that what we’ve done so far hasn’t worked, mad that I have to endure more of this. God gave this time to clear my mind, filter my emotions and prepare me to move forward. When I collapsed in tears I could feel His arm resting on my shoulders assuring me I will never be alone in this fight.

I read an awesome prayer in a book* Lori gave me …

Father …

I’m overwhelmed.

My burden is too heavy.

Anxieties dominate.

I ask you, God, take my

Problems – replace them

With your peace.

 

Anyway, that’s what’s happening. Love you guys. Love the Lord and praise His name for all He does for me and my family. And I praise His name for what He is doing in your life and lives of you family friends. Please take time to be quiet and look around. Find what God is doing around you and praise Him for it. Share it with us if you wish. I would love to have some encouraging stories of His love to stay encouraged.

†    God Bless and Good Night ! !

* EVERYDAY STRENGTH – A Cancer Patient’s Guide to Spiritual Survival by Randy Bechton – 1989 Baker Book House

That’s Not Exactly What I Wanted to Hear, Doc

There are times in your life where you’ve gotten all “prayed up”, you have everyone that loves you praying for you, you even have that gut feeling that all was going to go your way. Only to have the legs kicked out from under you again.

So let’s look at this from a spiritual standpoint first and foremost. God was in control before the appointment just as He is now that we have gotten the news. Lori and I will still be faithful and will praise His name throughout.

OK, now for a “what’s going on” standpoint. Dr. Randolph told us the cancer has progressed and I am going to have more chemotherapy. The lymph nodes under my armpits are enlarged, lit up, and almost certainly malignant. The left side of my neck is lit up most likely due to the surgery I had a couple of months ago. I also have some action on the right side of my neck which is almost certainly cancer. On a positive note, the cancer is not in any of my organs. Brain is clear, along with lungs, liver, kidneys, et al.

Now what are we going to do about it. First we praise the Creator of the Universe. He alone is worthy of praise. Secondly, we lean on the common grace He has made available to us all through medicine. I will take Gemzar and Taxol. I will have treatment week one, week two, and will have a break on week three. This will make up a cycle. I’m not certain at this point how many cycles will be prescribed before another PET/CT scan.

What are we expecting as an outcome? That the glory of God will be made undeniably evident to someone who is involved in our situation and a soul would be saved. Secondarily, that this cocktail of chemo will be enough to purge cancer from my body and I will be able to grow old with Lori, see my kids grow up, graduate from college, marry, give us grandkids (IN THAT ORDER!).

So that’s where we at. Please keep us on you prayers as we are still in dire need.

Love you all!

Alan

PET / CT

This afternoon I was prepped and took my scheduled PET/CT scan. I prayed that moments like that were especially nice when you can lay back, relax, and know that God is in absolute control.

 

We are praying to hear good news tomorrow after the scan is read. After the last scan we had gone from so much to so little we are hoping that trend continues and none can be found.

 

Regardless, Lori and I are confident in the Lord and we know His plan will be done, His glory will be displayed, and we will be his faithful servants.

 

God bless all of you, good night and rest comfortably in the fact that God loves you more than we can fathom. I look forward to posting the rest of His will that he reveals to us tomorrow.

 

Love to all our friends, family, and prayer warriors.

Alan & Lori

IT’S BEEN A LONG YEAR…since being diagnosed

August 8, 2013

 

It has definitely been a long rollercoaster ride of ups and downs, twists and turns but

praying we are now on the healing side of this ugly disease. From repeatedly going

to the doctor knowing that something is not right trying to find an answer– to being

told you have cancer and it is curable– to this is being very aggressive and this is not

the norm for this type of cancer– to being told that your cancer is not curable but it

is treatable can be a little taxing, mentally and physically. After going thru a year of

various surgeries and chemo that all the while the cancer continued to grow and spread,

we finally had gotten one that is beating it back. Thank you God!

 

It’s been a while since Alan has posted in his blog. I believe after battling this

disease for over a year now that it finally caught up with him, mentally, physically and

emotionally. Dealing with chemo, fatigue, pain from surgery, bone pain caused from

previous radiation, sinus infection and realizing that a major surgery that you just had

didn’t take care of ALL the problems is just too much for any one person to have to go

thru.

 

We are praying that we can get a handle on all the pain Alan is having so he can get

back to some kind of normalcy. We just met his new pain management doctor this

week and we are so excited to see what all he can do to help Alan combat it. It’s hard

to see him hurting so bad the way he does sometimes and all I can do is sit and cry with

him.

 

We have met some wonderful people on this journey. Some of the amazing people are

part of our staff/family at CTCA and the others are the ones who are walking the path

like Alan. While going through treatments you meet people from all walks of life and

from all parts of the country that are dealing with some of the same things you are going

thru. As strange as it sounds, it’s kind of like a “club” whether you want to think of it as

that or not. Although this is one club that you won’t see people standing at the door

trying to knock it down to get in, BUT once you are a member, you will not meet anyone,

more understanding, more supportive, more compassionate than those that are walking

the path with you.

 

Life can be tough and it can get you down but just when you think you have it bad

there’s always someone else out there that has it a lot worse than you and are in a

more difficult situation than you are. We have a praise report. One of our friends

at CTCA and someone I knew from years back got a clear report, Asa and Laurie,

thanking God for what he is doing in your lives. Asa is a wonderful Christian man that

helped my family many years back and I will always be grateful to him for that.

On a sadder note we lost a friend at CTCA but our praise is that John had a wonderful

“home going” to be with his Heavenly Father. John was a medic and his mom Jeanne

told me that there were over 30 fire trucks and ambulances leading the procession and

along the interstate, en route to the graveside, the overpasses had trucks with medics

and fireman saluting (chills…tears). At the service when the preacher gave a salvation

message he asked for every head to be bowed and eyes closed, about 12 people

raised their hand in making a decision. Praise God!!! Please be in prayer for Jeanne

and Cran, his parents and his twin brother. This is a very difficult time in their lives. His

mom Jeanne is a wonderful Christian lady who I think the world of!

 

Doug I., you and Connie are a constant fixture in our hearts, thoughts and prayers. We

love you so very much. Please be in prayer for Doug, for God’s will to be done and for

Connie peace and strength.

 

Deborah F., you are beautiful inside and out. Praying for total healing and God’s

blessings abundantly! Love you!

 

Carole N., we love you, lady. You are so very dear to our hearts! Praying for you and

the kids that as time goes on the pain of losing Jimmy lessens.

 

Please be in prayer for Alan and all the people that are battling this ugly disease and

also be in pray for the loved ones that are left behind. A friend of ours wrote; “It’s

strange to think cancer can be a blessing, but when one goes through the trials this

disease creates, yet one finds people like you and places like CTCA, you know God is

real and true.” (thank you Deborah F.) This is our sentiments, exactly. Thank you for

reading Alan’s blog. Praying in some way it can help you too.