It sounds almost as fun as it is. This one was actually a CT directed needle biopsy. I was able to use some twilight meds and some local anesthesia. The doctor who performed the test said my comfort was the primary focus.
My last needle biopsy was done in the basement/dungeon of the old Crawford Long Hospital in Atlanta. No anesthesia, 30 feet below street level pre-WWI architecture. A chair that was older than the building I was in, doctor from somewhere in Asia, could not understand her. World of difference.
Anyway, just had to have it on one side. They believe both sides are similar enough that one biopsy is all that would be required.
Next week we will meet with Dr. Randolph again to get the final results and start our new regimen of chemo.
Keep us in your prayers, it feels like we are starting over. I had the same rush of emotions this morning that I have had before. Sad that I have cancer, disappointed that what we’ve done so far hasn’t worked, mad that I have to endure more of this. God gave this time to clear my mind, filter my emotions and prepare me to move forward. When I collapsed in tears I could feel His arm resting on my shoulders assuring me I will never be alone in this fight.
I read an awesome prayer in a book* Lori gave me …
My burden is too heavy.
I ask you, God, take my
Problems – replace them
With your peace.
Anyway, that’s what’s happening. Love you guys. Love the Lord and praise His name for all He does for me and my family. And I praise His name for what He is doing in your life and lives of you family friends. Please take time to be quiet and look around. Find what God is doing around you and praise Him for it. Share it with us if you wish. I would love to have some encouraging stories of His love to stay encouraged.
† God Bless and Good Night ! !
* EVERYDAY STRENGTH – A Cancer Patient’s Guide to Spiritual Survival by Randy Bechton – 1989 Baker Book House
There are times in your life where you’ve gotten all “prayed up”, you have everyone that loves you praying for you, you even have that gut feeling that all was going to go your way. Only to have the legs kicked out from under you again.
So let’s look at this from a spiritual standpoint first and foremost. God was in control before the appointment just as He is now that we have gotten the news. Lori and I will still be faithful and will praise His name throughout.
OK, now for a “what’s going on” standpoint. Dr. Randolph told us the cancer has progressed and I am going to have more chemotherapy. The lymph nodes under my armpits are enlarged, lit up, and almost certainly malignant. The left side of my neck is lit up most likely due to the surgery I had a couple of months ago. I also have some action on the right side of my neck which is almost certainly cancer. On a positive note, the cancer is not in any of my organs. Brain is clear, along with lungs, liver, kidneys, et al.
Now what are we going to do about it. First we praise the Creator of the Universe. He alone is worthy of praise. Secondly, we lean on the common grace He has made available to us all through medicine. I will take Gemzar and Taxol. I will have treatment week one, week two, and will have a break on week three. This will make up a cycle. I’m not certain at this point how many cycles will be prescribed before another PET/CT scan.
What are we expecting as an outcome? That the glory of God will be made undeniably evident to someone who is involved in our situation and a soul would be saved. Secondarily, that this cocktail of chemo will be enough to purge cancer from my body and I will be able to grow old with Lori, see my kids grow up, graduate from college, marry, give us grandkids (IN THAT ORDER!).
So that’s where we at. Please keep us on you prayers as we are still in dire need.
Love you all!
This afternoon I was prepped and took my scheduled PET/CT scan. I prayed that moments like that were especially nice when you can lay back, relax, and know that God is in absolute control.
We are praying to hear good news tomorrow after the scan is read. After the last scan we had gone from so much to so little we are hoping that trend continues and none can be found.
Regardless, Lori and I are confident in the Lord and we know His plan will be done, His glory will be displayed, and we will be his faithful servants.
God bless all of you, good night and rest comfortably in the fact that God loves you more than we can fathom. I look forward to posting the rest of His will that he reveals to us tomorrow.
Love to all our friends, family, and prayer warriors.
Alan & Lori